Vixie’s Blog

Welcome back,

I know that it’s been a good 10 days since my last blog entry, but there hasn’t been a whole lot going on that is worth mentioning. However, I have had these weird dreams lately that are worth sharing. Personally, I am fascinated with dreams and there hidden meanings.

I dream every night, as does everyone… some mornings I wake up and don’t recall anything while most mornings I can recall certain vivid aspects of the dream. Like many people, I also have reoccurring dreams… not the same dream over and over, but the same sort of reoccurring things happen in a different scenario. With that said I’ll try to share as much as I can remember from the last few nights.

The first set of dreams started off with me visiting my dentist, my first dentist I had as a child. This is the first time he has appeared in my dream, but I was in his office and he had called me in to one of the rooms, the first room was already occupied with a lady who was put under for whatever reason, he made a little joke and we went on to find another room. We get to a different room and I realize that his office and the rooms he has are all inside of a huge building, like a museum or a theater. I could hear children laughing in the room next door and asked the dentist what was going on over there. Seems there was a play going on for a group of children and I wandered over and sat down to watch. That is all I remember from that….

In reality, the dentist was great with kids and I have not come across a nicer one. My last visit with this dentist was about 20 years ago and I still remember the way the waiting room looked and the little plastic treasure chest he gave me so I could put my teeth in it for the tooth fairy. I don’t understand the meaning behind the dream itself, but I know I felt content in the dream.

In the second dream, I was with another person… someone that seemed familiar but I can’t put my finger on it… Anyway, we were outside on a narrow dirt road and there was a small barbed wire fence and large open field in front of us. Next to us on our left was a large bale of hay that we we sitting behind.  For some reason, I decided to hop over the fence and walk through the field… The further I walk, the more dead carcasses and buckets of blood I see, so I turn around to go back to where my friend was. As I get closer to the fence I see a small group of unfriendly looking guys walking down the narrow dirt road toward us and I started running toward the bale of hay hoping to go unnoticed.  I arrive back and told my friend of the things I saw, including the unfriendly guys coming toward us. I was then told that we may be trespassing and the area we are in has been know to be used for cult activity. Our plan now was to stay very quiet and hope the group of guys just pass by and don’t notice us.  That didn’t happen… We were pulled up off of the ground and asked what we were doing, and why are we here… As we were being threatened, I woke up.

I shared this dream with my husband last night, and he seemed surprised that I could explain things with such detail about the game he was playing while I was sleeping. His computer is right next to our bed, and for the last week I have been wearing a sleeping mask since he tends to stay up until 4am working/playing games on his computer. The light coming off of his huge monitor is enough to keep me awake. ( I like it pitch black while I am sleeping).  Apparently he starting playing this game called Jerico and one of the missions takes place in a field and there are dead people coming out of the ground to attack you….  Just funny that I had never seen the game or heard anything while he was playing (he wears headphones while I am sleeping) and yet described the mission he had in the game.  I guess that qualifies as a telepathic dream.

The third dream I had was one of the reoccurring dreams where I lose some of my teeth. The scenario of these dreams always varies, but I always seem to manage losing a few of my teeth… Sometimes I lose two teeth and other times I can’t seem to stop them from coming out… I did a little research on the hidden meaning behind this reoccurring dream, some say it could mean a fear of ageing or fear of death, some say it’s a feeling of insecurity or abandonment, some say it’s a fear of change, and some say it’s because you can’t keep a secret.

Well, I am certain that the feelings/fear or abandonment and the fear of change is what applies to me. Since both parents left me at an early age and anyone I was ever close to seems to have a way of leaving. As for the fear of change, well most of the time I try to welcome change. But then there are time where I lack self confidence and second guess myself as to whether or not I am doing the right thing.  I suppose that could hold true in my currant situation having moved 2500 miles away from home, starting over in a new country, new job, still trying to get on my feet.

On another note though, regarding my reoccurring dreams about my friend Diana… A few months ago I had a little help locating her obituary, even though it didn’t mention the cause of death, it did mention the cemetery she was laid to rest. So I went out and bought a bouquet of flowers and drove over to the cemetery, walked through it from end to end and never did find her head stone… I said a little prayer for her and brought the flowers home and since then I have not been visited by Diana in my dreams. In the end it was was important to make peace, say good bye and acknowledge that she was gone, than it was to dwell on the reason why.

From what I understand, the reason we are visited in our dreams by those friends and family that have passed on, is because they are there to give us a message… Of coarse they will never flat out tell you the message or warning, that is up to you to figure out from the clues provided in your dream. In most cases you will  be revisited until you understand the meaning of the message they have been sent to deliver.

One other reoccurring dream I keep having includes the house my grandmother (on my mother’s side) used to live in. I remember her house very well and the layout never changes in my dreams. I spent much of my childhood in that house, I suppose that was really the only constant and stable place I had with all of the moving around that was done within my first 10 years. From what I’ve read, dreaming of a house often times represents YOU and how you see yourself. Or it could also be a place of comfort, which I believe is the case for me.

For the most part, once I fall asleep… the first 3 hours are the most sound and I could sleep through just about anything… After 3 hours, I toss/turn and go into a light sleeping mode and I hear everything…. For the last year or so I have been taking 3grams of melatonin to help with the active mind that I have. Now I don’t take this every night, my first and only bottle of 120 tablets still has about 20 tablets left. I find that if I take one tablet about 30 minutes before going to bed, that I fall asleep faster…As opposed to laying there trying to fall asleep and running 101 different scenarios in my head for an hour… The only side affect I have encountered is the bizzare vivid dreams I sometimes have… But then again that is nothing new for me, otherwise it is nonaddictive and I don’t wake up feeling tired and groggy.

Anyway, it’s getting late and I have to get up for work tomorrow…Time to call it a night.

Good Night!